just like dancer in the dark

i know this is my first post in a while and I should try to keep it light...but





I just saw United 93.


and then I threw up.



just one more fucking amazing unbelievable movie I will never EVER watch again.

it's a little sad being me right now. i want it to be chicago and casey today.


i want to feel......

so

My brother took my lap top school so I have no internet and it is going to make things a little difficult. I won't be able to reply to email because I won't be able to check it so No one get mad at me here. I am going to try to get on my Dad's work computer but I can only do that when he isn't working on it, and he usually is.


things are going. I'm getting a little scared about moving to Chicago... that is a big step... big jump... little scary but, I think that means it's a good idea. I have been unbelievably scared before all major events in my life and usually the things I think I want to back out of at the last minute are the ones I enjoy most... such as going to college in the first place and going to Brno... but both of those were amazing for the most part....

I'm pretty lonely down here.... and more than a little bored.

i feel like this.

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking the drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullaby
Joking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
I'm Mr. Brightside

(repeat)






















V for Vendetta is the best movie so far this year. Unfucking believable. Fuck yeah!

my dog Babe died and I feel all alone.

just some stars

Pink Panther : 1/2*
Nanny McPhee: ***
Curious George: *
Freedomland: no stars (a first for me)
Firewall: 1/2*
Final Destination 3: **1/2
8 Below: ***
Madea's Family Reunion: *1/2
Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow: ****
Ong Bak: ***1/2
Old Boy: ****
Donnie Darko: ***1/2
Aquamarine: *1/2
Ultraviolet: *
When a Stranger Calls: No stars
Big Mama's House 2: *
Doogal: no stars
The Emperor's New Groove: ***
Quick Change: *1/2
Lost Boys: 1/2*
Date Movie: 1/2*
The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada: ***1/2
Brokeback Mountain: ***
Brotherhood of the Wolf: ****
Layer Cake: ***
Frailty: **1/2
The Aristocrats: ***
The 5 Obstructions: **
(unknown title: documentary about Metal Music): ***
Crash:** ( this is not everything that you want it to be..... at all)



that is all I can remember right now.....

Full is not as heavy as empty.......not nearly my love... not nearly my love.. .not nearly

You see, my problem is, my favorite time of day is between midnight and about 7am.
You get to see the whole world asleep and then suddenly awake again.
It is as if everything is happening at the same time.

it is as if I am, again, walking down masarykova with a lying black man who would later impregnate my friend.
It is as if it were all happening now.

or maybe it is riding in the car with the windows rolled down, watching the first bit of sunlight touch the clouds...it
is every song on the radio being the right one for the time

it is all nostalgia.

it is the wind in the trees and first few drivers on the road, the first few pedestrians on the street.

the smell of fresh bread.

it is eveyday new and different and reborn.

and if I believed in God, now would be the time he would tell us, "it is good", even if it is not.

I love Karl

If you don't know who this is....then you need to. Download Itunes...go to Podcasts and get the Ricky Gervais show.

I have been thinking

Maybe we should think of the middle as not being gray but, being both black and white. All reflecting and all absorbing. And if love exists as anything more than the idea of love, then this is where it must live.