July 30, 2007

Stellar Summer Weekends

This weekend I worked at the Shakes Friday and Saturday. Always fun there. Got a little stilly with some actors at the bar on Friday... ended up taking random ass 'sexy' (fully clothed:) pictures and kissing a gay man:)
Saturday at the Pier again, sushi on the lawn in the shade. Bowling at Fireside for Mike's birthday. To some Mexican restaurant at something like 2am. Food. There was this boy at the bar and he just kept smiling at me everytime I walked by but, he wouldn't say anything. Finally, we were going to leave and so I walked up to the bar, with the purpose of asking for a bolsa (what's that Jesse?) and this guy who had been looking at me had The Onion in his hand, so I snuck it out of his hand and started reading it... well I didn't read any of it obviously. So we start talking at the bar and everyone is leaving (Erin and Nathan went dancing. Brenda, Matt, Casey and Rachel (who visited!) went home). Steve (this guy) and I go sit on a bench in Logan Square and end up talking for about an hour. Then we go to his house and sit on his third floor balcony and drink a bottle of wine and watch the sun come up. So that was pretty awesome. We slept. He took me to breakfast the next day and then we had a nap. Who knows if this guy is ever going to call me. Who knows. Regardless, it was a pretty wonderful spontaneous 12 hour date, at least 6 hours of which were spent sleeping. One hour was spent lying on the couch listening to the Postal Service.

No time for video games of movies this weekend. I still haven't seen fucking Ratatoille:(

July 24, 2007


Holy Fucking Christ! Chicago Shakes just asked me to do Cymbeline! That means about 3 months solid work in a theatre. In fucking Chicago Shakespeare Theatre.

I am freaking out.

whew... ok.... bit calmer now.

I will be doing wardrobe for the run of the show

Want to take a virtual tour??

July 23, 2007

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Well I didn't get to start reading until Sunday Morning at about 12:30am, as this is when I finally got home from work. It took me (no exagerations) 2 HOURS! to get from Navy Pier to my house. This should have taken me about 45 minutes. I waited for a bus for 40 minutes and then the bus was packed and 2 tiny kids squished into the seat next to me and then one of them fell asleep on me (I didn't mind this, of course). There was a lady in front of us with this crazy topiary bush thing that was wacking people in the face! Some guy kept pulling the cord for the bus to stop and for some reason the bell sound kept happening (usually it will only sound the bell once and everyone who pulls on the cord after that will not hear a sound) anyway that shit kept dinging and dinging. AHH! Anyway...

Finally got home and read for about 3ish hours and then fell alseep on the couch:) I wanted to read this one slower. I wanted to let it sink in. Usually I finish them in about 6 hours of so and, it's usually the same evening/morning I have gotten the book.


It ends happily. I should be happy.... but I am not. I think this may sound a little silly but, I feel sad. I have been reading these books for about 7 years now. How exciting it was to be apart of this global phenomenon. How amazing that people were this excited about books! Everytime a new one was coming out, I looked forward to the excitment of the midnight party. It was awesome to see grandma's and 9 year olds talking about the same characters and with equal passion! It's over now, and I will miss waiting for it to be over. Does that make sense? I'm sad there isn't anything left for me to find out.

July 21, 2007

Harry Potter....

We (Casey, Matt, Brenda, Nathan, Skylar, and I ) all went and the ladies + Matt picked up our books. I haven't opened mine. I haven't even opened it! Can you believe it! I had some other things to do and they could not be postponed. I'm at the Shakes now... and I will be here til atleast 9! Which means I might get home at 10:30. So I might get to open Harry Potter tonight..... No one tell me anything.

I had a pretty fantastic week this week. A little odd but, very spontaneous and silly.

July 20, 2007


No time for real posting, Batman!

Harry Potter tonight!!!

I'm not good at following my own advice:)

Playing Guitar Hero on hard! (Badly)

Trying not to fall asleep at desk.

Tired of internet. Got so bored I imed some one random and would only typ3 to them in 1337 (I would hate it if someone did that to me:) Pwned!

Read about String Theory today

I'm very smiley today:)


July 17, 2007

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. meh.

I am so fucking bored in this fucking office. I want to dig my eyes out with spoons. Slash at Portfolio Managers with highlighters. Heave reems of paper at Marketing Professionals. Fuck me.

July 16, 2007

Harry Potters....

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone: ***
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets: **
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban: ****
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire: **

(wait for it...)

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: * * * * *

Holy FUCK! Look kids, I don't like to go see movies from books. Even when it's good, I still feel a little sad at the end. It's so hard to capture the essence of a book on screen, especially if you feel like you have to put EVERYTHING in the movie. You can't go too far off on your own, inventing the world either to fit your needs. You can't just be adding characters and changing huge plot elements. Fine line for directors. I'm pretty hard to please. Well, no fear here children. This movie was stunning. I watched at least three-quarters of this movie with my mouth hanging open. None of the other movies have managed to find the spirit of the book like this one. The third one was great. We are all aware that Curan can direct and that he has a vision. I had never heard of this David Yates fellow before but, he totally got it. The third and fifth books are very similar in tone. Things are dark and tense and Harry is feeling alone, sometimes hopeless. Dumbledore shuts him out, Ron and Hermione *can't* understand. Harry is awash in these angsty teen-age feelings x10, as he figures it is he who must destroy Voldermort. Yates borrowed some of Curan's visuals as well, using Hagrid's Hut in a scene and the giant pendulum in another. I am not going to complain about there being no quidditch. I'm pretty glad they left it out. Harry doesn't play much in the 5th one anyway. There were soooo many subtle details for us long time Potterists. Ron and Hermione glance at each other a bit more. When Harry is about to kiss Cho, Ginny see what's happening. They are in the Room of Requirement. Ginny is leaving and has a moment of hesitation, when she knows what's going to happen between Harry and Cho and WE know that Ginny doesn't like this at all. Tiny looks that convey everything. The scenes at the ministry were phenomenal. The hall of mysteries was scary and dark (it reminded me a bit of the ship in Event Horizon) and seemed alive. Luna was amazing. Wispy and perceptive but aloof and silly. Umbridge was also portrayed wonderfully. I was worried that she wasn't fat enough but, regardless, her character was spot on. I was shaking at the end. I mean physically, I was so excited, amazed, and just utterly shocked by how good this movie was. Seriously, I felt like I had just gotten laid...and it had been a while....

Most of you who were going to see this would have done so without my review. I'm just glad America is going to see a movie that's worth it this time around.

July 5, 2007

Dawn of the Dead (the Remake)

Dawn of the Dead (2004): ****
I had seen this before but, some of us watched it last night. I love zombie movies. Seriously. This one is pretty great. The directors cut, or unrated version (whatever), gives you a bit more character and a bit more gore. The extra character stuff was nice. I like to get to know my assholes and bitches before they are ravaged/sawed/zombified/impaled... you get the picture. Reasons to see this zombie movie in particular: 1) pimped shuttle buses with chainsaw holes of slashing those pesky hanger-on zombies 2) Shear volume of zombies 3) Ving 4) No happy ending. Also if you enjoy subversive political statements. Ahhhh... politics and zombies... who would have ever thought someone would go there?

Other news:

I am so ridiculously in love with Psychonauts. Holy-Gosh-Wow! I have maybe 4 more levels (I'm in the Asylum, currently) and I just can't get enough!

I haven't been sleeping, or rather, I have been sleeping but, my dreams are full of tasks that I can't accomplish and I spend all night trying to get these dream-things done, only to wake in the more compelely exhausted. yuck.

My 4th was low-key, baby. Mostly Video games and naps and Harry Potter on cd (ohmyfuckingchristit'slike16daysaway!)

July 2, 2007


Sicko: *****
So far this is my favorite Michael Moore film. It was funny! Super funny! God Bless Cuba! I wonder how I would feel about this movie if I weren't a fan of socialized medicine? I am. I have been for a long time. Ever since I heard about socialize medicine in Canada (probably 10th grade). Anyway, I didn't recieve very much information from this film that I wasn't already aware of but, people were gasping and cheering and booing in the theatre. I'm glad that other liberal chicagoans also.... oh shit......are other none liberal chicagoans going to 'like it' What about conservatives? I liked this movie but, I realize it's sort of propaganda, isn't it? What didn't Mr. Moore tell us? What is the truth? Is there even a truth anymore? OOOOHHHHH GOD! I have lost myself in this whirlwind of thought! Help Help! I've turned into a SOCIALIST!

The Last Kiss: **
Blah. Boy fucks underwear model only to go crawling back to his pregnant girlfriend. Spends a couple of days on the porch in the rain waiting for her to literally (and figuratively (how clever!) let him back in. Who cares? The side characters were more interesting. I wish the movie had been more about them. It sort of left me feeling like no relationship would ever work because people are inherently going to fuck each other over. I don't think that was what they wanted me to take from this movie but, it was such a fucking snore and everyone in it was pathetic and angry and cheating and so....... even if all these relationships get resolved, even if everyone lets someone 'in' in the end, it's only because none of us want to be alone. It made me think that there are no good relationships, there is only living with bad ones. Wow, do I sound pessimistic or what!

June 29, 2007


Happiness: ****
Sometimes I find it hard to grade movies like this. Like The Squid and The Whale. I mean, granted, they are very different but, they are both sort of artsy movies that show us a glimpse into the fucked up lives of other people. There is lots of come in this movie. I was a little shocked. And grossed out. But that scene on the couch with Dylan Baker and his kid, where he answers all the questions. Fucking wow. He blew my mind. Totally solid performance by everyone in the film but, that scene was so raw and emotional. (are you (Charlie, Jesse, and Rhys)going to make really bad jokes about that last sentence? )

anywho I want to see Ratatouille in the worst way. Pixar+Brad Bird=Goddamnfantasticnessously happy Jess but, I have to figure out how to pay the rent before I can go galumphing off to the movies.

Next up from Netflix: The Last Kiss. Weeds Season 2 is living at the Top of my Q until it releases!

Ps2 News:
Finished Playing: Indigo Prophesy (6 hours) This was my first none racing/Guitar Hero Game to beat since Donkey Kong Country 3.
Now Playing: Psychonauts and I am totally in love!

June 18, 2007


JuneBug: ****
This was a wonderfully delicate movie. I don't know that any movie has captured the feeling of 'southerness' quite like this. Tiny towns where everyone goes to church and kids drop out of school to get married and the land is still soaked with the blood from wars of hundreds of years ago. Where things are slower and quieter. It's one of those movies where 'nothing happens'. I was blown away by the fullness of the characters. By how much these people told me about themselves by their gestures. By the things they didn't say. See it.

Knocked Up: *****
Look, I am a 15 year old boy. I mean... I have the mentalilty of a 15 year old boy. Video games, green, metal... come on. Mr. Apatow manages to appeal to both the 15 year old boy in me and the 25 year old girl. This movie was gross and funny and stupid and awesome and full of heart. I didn't feel the length at all...and coming in over 2 hours for a 'romantic comedy' is usually not a good thing. He is the only person I would let convince me that this much time could be devoted to something falling into this genre and, that is mostly because he doesn't make 'romantic comedies' as we know them. Or he sees the change in youth (by youth I mean us 20 somethings with no direction) and reflects it back at us.

Pirates 3: ****
I was really confused for most of this movie. No idea who was back-stabbing who. I hadn't seen the 2nd one since it was in theatres. I would have appriciated a 2 minute recap of some kind. After about 10 minutes of the movie, 10 minutes where I sat trying to figure out what the fuck was goin on, I remembered that it was Pirates 3 and that I should just turn my brain off and enjoy. This worked well. Totally enjoyable. I was sad that Calypso just 'became the storm'. I didn't really feel like her 'presence' as a part of the battle was as strong as it could have been. I don't know how they could have helped this matter. Luckily we didn't see her face in the shape of clouds .... unless it was done better than faces/smiles/eyes are normally portrayed. I am really gald I stayed through the credits. What if you didn't? I mean... the whole series is wrapped up in those 2 minutes. So many people left without seeing 'the end'. Was that smart of Disney? I guess people should have known by now that there would be something after the credits...

Ocean's 13: I may have said 3 before but I think I am gonna go with **
Total let down. No suprise. No fun. Not interesting. Totally bored. It wasn't bad per say... It might have been better had it been....

The Marine: ***
No one freak out. 3 stars is a lot for a movie made by the WWF, right. This movie was fucking rickdezilus. HUGE explosions, car chases, awful acting, chessy love story, bad dialogue, stupid bad guys, lame jokes, and a happy ending. B movie beauty. Get all messed up and gather the boys and laugh and cheer.

I'm still all....

May 31, 2007

Mild Ramblings

Well guys... I haven't been to see a movie since Spiderman. Sorry... I will try to see both Pirates and Knocked up before next friday when I will see Ocean's 13 with Ian... or maybe Saturday.. Anyway, we will see it, I am sure. Oh yeah, Ian is coming to visit me NEXT WEEK! I am dancing for joy! I am leaping and folicing and w00t w00ting!

Been splitting the time between the Shakes and Temp agency. There is a vague distant hope that The Shakes will want me permanently... sometime in the future... I don't want to think about it and get too excited only to be crushed. Can't take it right now.

Still no word from Drew. Has this ever happened to any of you guys? You're seeing someone... for a little while... not long.... and then they just decide never to call you again? Because it FUCKING SUCKS. The man has Kavalier and Clay... ok..... I stole that book from David over 2 years ago! It went to Europe with me (actually with Jesse). I underlined in it. It has leaves in it from the Japanese garden oustside Vinarska and most importantly... it was David's book and he loved it soo much that he lent it to me for about a year.... and I didn't read it... and then Finally I did and I just fell in love. I want it back. I didn't do anything to this guy and he just decides to not speak to me. I don't give a shit about that. fuck him.... I just want my book! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

In other news: Moving Erin and Mike this week.... ohgodhelpus!

May 15, 2007

Jess to make voyage home!

I will return to the South for 1 week only! August 11th - 19th. I'm not gonna have a car... or any money probably... but... if you are around.. I probably will want to hang out with you!

May 14, 2007

Shake It!

I love The Shakes. I can not say enough. Who cares if I'm working 12 or 13 hours! Seriously... It fucking rocks.

This song:

Nada Surf: 80 Windows

It's all over me... normally I would post the lyrics but, seems maybe too sad of a song to post...

I am reading American Gods again. I bought it for myself because Drew dissapeared and still has, in his posession, treasured books of mine, which I may never see again. I don't want to think about it... anyway I needed something to cheer me.

May 10, 2007

Fuck me.

So here I am on my way from one job to the other. From the South Loop area to Navy Pier... Just walking along and a woman has a goddamn heart attack. I have never seen anyone have a heart attack. I have never been more scared in my life. I couldn't do anything. I mean no one around could do anything but call 911 on their cell phones. I was so shaken. I mean... I am still really shaken. I had to leave. I mean there were tons of people around and I just didn't want to stand there gawking. She was still breathing and stuff... anyway....talk about feeling helpless. It's a goddamn theme for me these days..................
I am exhausted and more than anything else in the entire world I want someone to be in my bed when I get home. Not anyone, mind you... but someone who wants to be there... and there just isn't anyone to do that for me right now. I am seriously wiped already and I still have 10 days of this maddness. Pray to all the gods you believe in... 'cause I am gonna need some serious Universe lovin to make it ....

May 7, 2007


Spider-Man 3: *** (out of 5)

I know that no one is holding their breath for my review of this movie. The reviews for a movie like this don't matter. Did Spiderman make like 150 mil this weekend? Right, people are going regardless, which is good of them because if people were listening, this movie would definetly not have done so well. I love Spiderman. I mean, I think I am in love with the idea of comics because of Spiderman. This final chapter of the supposed trilogy was not the beautiful and cohesively woven tapestry or its predecesor. It was too much. With so many villians, I didn't feel like I could concentrate, or better yet, I didn't feel as if I was given something to concentrate on. Neither Venom nor the Sandman felt like full characters to me. I didn't feel like I learned something and I didn't feel like Peter learned something either. Venom is like, my all time favorite villian maybe ever. That face scares THE SHIT out of me. No joke. Serious nightmares.... but with only about 10 minutes of Venom in the whole fucking movie.... I just felt like I didn't even have time to be scared! Also: Not enough fighting and I feel as if the fighting wasn't as carefully shot; by that I mean that it wasn't slow enough. Show me a frame that looks like a pannel from a comic! Isn't that part of why Spiderman 2 works? (I said 'part' because we all know that movie is working on tons of levels) All the fighting was shot 'on the move' which isn't bad because we are supposed to be able to get lost in it and be excited and whatnot but, like I said, it was unfocused. I did love Hipster/Emo (Ian called him 'My Chemical Romance Peter') Peter Parker. That shit was hilarious. Bruce Campbell= always awesome. Believe it or not, I also liked (*struggling with the truth of this*) James Franco or Franko or whatever. When he wasn't being all 'Your friend The Bug' and was just being a nice guy with no real memory: well he was pretty fucking likeable! The Bottom line: This was good but not great. I hope it doesn't become the trend for what will definetly be the biggest summer movie season of all time.

May 4, 2007

*low growl*

I just don't fucking get it. I just don't. I don't fucking understand at all. Maybe... no.... well maybe..... no that's no good either. I just don't fucking get it. Here is a picture that I didn't draw but, it's kinda perfect.

May 3, 2007

Jess' Metal Adventure

Part One: The Journey

I rushed home yesterday after a tedious and boring day at work. I probably scooted out a little earlier than I should have (about 10 minutes) but, thankfully, someone I hardly know covered for me. Big ups to Geri! Anyway I get home, strip, put on a black tank top, load my pockets with concert tickets, phone, and cigarettes, Smoke a BIG ol' bowl and head back out. Now, one of my absolute favorite things is to be stoned in during the rush hour commute. I don't ever get to do this because usually I am participating in the commute... but on rare occasion I have run home to smoke and then run back out again to do whatever in the city. Anyway, being stoned and not in a hurry allows me the ability to observe the Chicagoan in the 'Rush Zone'. This is the little place that people go in their heads on their way to or from work. Everyone is in their own world. It is as if we are all traveling with tiny bubbles around us. No one talks to each other, or looks at each other. People listen to their music and bobb their heads or tap their fingers and feet, people do the crossword, or read a book or look over work papers. Here we all are in this tiny tiny space, all smuched in together, and the only thing that everyone wants is to be home (At night anyway... mornings are obviously different but that is a post for another time...). Everyone wants to be home 10 minutes ago and so people get in their little zones until their stop arrives. Ususally, as I said earlier, I am also in this place. I put my tunes on, I pull out the crossword, and I fucking jam and fill in squares but, when I am stoned, and not in a hurry... I get to WATCH THIS! It is amazing to watch all these people shut out all the rest of the people! No one pays attention to ANYONE, which gives me the freedom to casually observe anyone I want to. I like to try and guess the kind of music people are listening to but the way they stand or sit or tap body parts.... I like to watch the person reading the good part of the book get all lost inside their reading and make funny faces of shock, or of saddness, or of glee at what they are reading. The wonder of it is, of course, increased by the drugs. I arrive at the venue happy, stoned, and a little nervous. I felt like Metal and I were about to 'do it' for the first time.

Part Two: The Concert

I got to the House of Blues and gave my ticket, got my braclet, and headed up the stairs. Devil Driver was playing. I am guessing they had just started because I ended up seeing about 45 minutes of their set. I hadn't listened to much but the crowd was diggin' it. I find a place just outside the pit where I can see really well and I watch. The music was.... well it was fast and fragile. I felt like it was in danger of falling apart at any minute or, at times, it was just 'metal by numbers' to quote a friend. They ended up playing some new stuff from a heretofor unreleased album and it was fucking raw. It was fucking dirty and hard and I liked it! During one of these songs a dude was crowd surfing and he was seemingly much more expierenced than anyone else had been thus far because he just threw both of his hands in the air, horns up, and proceeded to play air drums flawlessly along with the music for a good 20 seconds. He was the fucking man!

They finish and we stand around waiting... atleast I am waiting. I listen to the amazing number of metalheads around me discuss their favorite bands, sounds, whatever.... and finally Unearth comes on. Now.... this is my band. I don't give a fuck what you think. These are like, my boys, you know? (See earlier post) The crowd boos. And this is a metal crowd, right... so this is some fucking serious booing. Anyway they play some good shit, all shit that I really like... and then they take a break to talk to the crowd for a minute and (no fucking joke) People start Chanting "YOU'RE NOT METAL...YOU'RE NOT METAL...YOU'RE NOT METAL" so loud that I can't even hear what this guy is trying to say to people. I was floored. really. I guess it was this: the headliners are some serious Death Metal. Unearth is New American Metal (which comes straight from Swedish Melodic Death Metal) but they are NOT DEATH METAL. Not at all. Anyway fuck those people.... 'cause I rocked my fuckin' face off. Horns in the Air, Head-bouncing, air-guitaring, chest-drumming... I was fuckin' there to rock! After the set... I waited around for Dimmu to play but, not being a big fan of straight up death metal, and not knowing anything by these guys, I just couldn't hear it. It was noise. Death metal... well I think it just isn't for me. That's cool. Whatever. I left and was home in time for Lost.

Part Three: Wherein I Ramble About Some Shit

Well this was my first metal show and Ian was right. I don't know that I am going to be able to go see a non-metal show ever again. I don't really mean that but, it's just a way for me to say that this shit was fucking awesome. I didn't feel out of place, or scared, or silly. I felt home. Even if these muther-fuckers were not all about Unearth... and even though they were assholes, they were still metal. It was the first time I had seen so many other metal fans gathered together in person. The crowd was a sea of bald, goateed, tattooed, pierced dudes. It was like my own person porn movie! I swear to GOD! It was so fucking hot. I definetly feel more metal in the future baby... more live metal obviously. Overall, it was great. It would have been way more awesome had the crowd been into it with me. It would have been way more awesome if it hadn't cost me $70. It would have been awesome if I had found someone to sell/give my extra ticket to BUT, I did it. I did it by myself. I went to my first metal show ever.... and I went all by myself. What's more Metal than that, I ask you?

p.s. I just looked at my 'score' on my 1up page and had to screenshot that bitch...

April 30, 2007

Jess' First Metal Show...

Here I am with these tickets to Unearth and seemingly no one to go with me. Anyone in Chicago at all remotely interested in this should email me.... lilyiris at gmail dot com
It's Wedneday. Starts at 5:45 but I planned on getting there about 6:30....

April 29, 2007

sometimes when something is all stuck in your head... you just have to get it out, right?

Well I heard there was a secret chordthat David played and it pleased the LordBut you don't really care for music, do ya?Well it goes like this :The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major liftThe baffled king composing HallelujahHallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...Well your faith was strong but you needed proofYou saw her bathing on the roofHer beauty and the moonlight overthrew yaAnd she tied you to her kitchen chairShe broke your throne and she cut your hairAnd from your lips she drew the HallelujahHallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...(Yeah but) Baby I've been here beforeI've seen this room and I've walked this floor, (You know)I used to live alone before I knew yaAnd I've seen your flag on the marble archand love is not a victory marchIt's a cold and it's a broken HallelujahHallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...Well there was a time when you let me knowWhat's really going on belowBut now you never show that to me do yaBut remember when I moved in youAnd the holy dove was moving tooAnd every breath we drew was HallelujahHallelujah Hallelujah HallelujahHallelujah...[Instrumental]Maybe there's a God aboveBut all I've ever learned from loveWas how to shoot somebody who outdrew yaAnd it's not a cry that you hear at nightIt's not somebody who's seen the lightIt's a cold and it's a broken HallelujahHallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah

April 26, 2007

silly Jess....

Funny Video of Jess all stoned. I believe this would be in August 2005 Also in this video are: My mother, My brother Tim and his Girlfriend Dolly, and my brother Jason is taking the video. I'm the one who can't stop laughing....

April 25, 2007

House of Blues (which means more to me than it may at first glance)

Well... atleast for about 5 minutes, I am going to rejoice. I have just purchased Unearth tickets. Just under a year ago, Ian sat me down to watch the RoadRunner United's documentary on their metal groups getting together in many different ways (drummer from one band, bass from another) to make an album. This was my first introduction to metal. It was all noise. It was nothing to me. After watching the doc we listened to select songs from the album and for the first time I could kind of hear the skill. Almost. At least, I was appreciating it more because I had SEEN what these people were doing with their hands and fingers and was impressed. A couple of weeks later we watched Sam Dunn's doc, Metal: A Headbanger's Journey. This was even more interesting because it broke metal down into sub-genres, talked about history, violence, death, and sound. I still couldn't hear the music, or atleast, I couldn't hear it over the screaming. I remember understanding that the vocal should be like another instrument. I remember thinking that I was supposed to hear it as a whole, but I couldn't. I asked Ian for a little metal on my ipod. Just a little... and I got Unearth's then new album III: In the Eyes of Fire. The last track on the album is an instrumental. Now here was something I could get behind! It was like balls to the wall, orgasm-inducing, fucking-turned all the way up loud - BADDASS! I blared that shit. All over town, baby. About the 7th time I listened to it I was stopped at a stop light, and a truck was stopped next to me. I had this shit up fucking loud and the guy in the truck leans over and screams, "That sounds Fucking AMAZING!" "Fuck, yeah, it does," I said. Fuck Yeah. Here was the moment that I finally felt like I heard it. It was like an epiphany. I went back and listened to the whole album, and slowly I started listening to other things: Lamb of God, Trivium, Chimera....fast forward to now and I am reading text books about the history of Death Metal and Grindcore...listening to Children of Bodom, Arch Enemy and dozens of others. I spend time talking about the influence of Swedish Melodic Death Metal on the New Wave of American Metal. I geek out over horrendous album covers. I feel like I AM Metal. Like it's in me. It's like I discovered a part of myself I didn't even know! At 24! This, of course, I owe to Ian, to marijuana, and especially to Unearth. Concert is next Wednesday....--

April 23, 2007



Hot Fuzz: **** (that's 4 out of 5)
Did you like Shaun of the Dead? I did and, I therefore like this movie. Fucking hilarious use of the cop-movie stereotype (they talk about cool things to say after killing people:). Great action-editing. Basically everything you think is funny about cop movies/action movies/buddy movies, is in this one. It was a little long. I like my comedy right at about 1hr 45 and I feel like this was a solid 2 hour movie... I think it could have come in about 30 minutes shorter without losing anything funny... there is some preliminary beginning shit that might have been able to get cut... anyway... people do eventually get shot/impaled/blown up: quite graphically. If you think brits are funny, like action/comedies, or enjoyed Shaun, then smoke a bowl and see this shit. (I guess the bowl is optional...)

April 20, 2007

more posting!

Sorry but this day is just really weird...and getting weirder.

First I always sneak out at 11 to smoke a cigarette...usually this is some quiet time for me...I bring the ipod, listen to something (1up, GFW..today it was Tool's Lateralus) and smoke my cigarette... but as I sit in the sun to enjoy my stolen 5 minutes, a girl sits down and starts talking to me. I remove the earbuds and she is going off about how they are shooting a movie down the street and she can't cross. She starts screaming about how this is bullshit and she has to go to work. I asked her if she could walk up the block and around but, no, that was too much. She was just going to sit there and wait the movie-people out....

Then I am reading on 1Up.com a review that one of their guys wrote about the new NIN...anyway I am reading the comments and I come across this

idn't know about it. Point me in the right direction if you would. The faux government sticker on the back of the CD case is a hoot. Here it is.
USBM WARNING:Consuming or spreading this material may be deemed subversive by the United States Bureau Of Morality. If you or someone you know has engaged in subversive acts or thoughts, call: 1-866-445-6580BE A PATRIOT - BE AN INFORMER!

anyway...I called that number and that shit was pretty funny... in the scary, ohjesus-someone-probably-thinks-this-is-a-GOOD-idea way. anyway... at the end of the recording this auto-woman told me that I was 'now part of the problem' . Hell Yes!

And one more thing: I was just asked to hand out a memo to the staff containing things to look for in packages in order to determine if they are, in fact, bombs. This included many helpful things such as: excessive tape, odd shapes, unusual powder, grease stains, misspelling, extra postage, and (THE BEST) protruding wires. So, if you were thinking about opening that funny, dirty, sticky, package with all the wires sticking out of it.... well.... is anyone else thinking new-age-natural-selection....

Four Twenty

Doesn't it make sense, on today of all days, that I would walk the 1/2 mile to the L from my house only to realize I didn't have my CTA pass. This wouldn't have been awful.. I could have used an ATM to gimmie some cash but, I had left my wallet at home, too. So I walked back and got it and still managed to make it to work right as the clock hit 8! woohoo for not being late.

In other news, I am going to see Troilus and Cressida tonight...alone I think. I am excited nonetheless because I was in the shop while this show was being built and the costumes look EFFING awesome. So much leather. So many hot dudes...not to mention hot women, blood, war, an interesting set design and some truely creepy music. I hope it pulls together because it seems to have all the right pieces.

Metal tomorrow with Drew and Emin? Lazy outside weekend? These things may also be in my future.... and maybe a brownie... if I'm lucky:)

By the way: Grindhouse: *****
Casey and I finished Part 1 of the 6th season of the Sopranos. We are almost caught up... and if we had comcast, we would be watching it with the rest of the world.....

April 17, 2007


April 16, 2007


My Heart goes out to everyone.... I just can't believe...I'm sorry...I can't finish this post...

April 13, 2007

and so it goes...

my tour hath ended. coporate hell, here I saddly come....

March 28, 2007

Hustle....and Flow.

Hey kids.
Gosh, everything just got all crazy...in good ways and in some bad ways as well. Let's start with Bloc Party! Casey and I went to the Congress on Friday to see them play a show. Pretty good. I gave it a 3 out of 5. They weren't the best live show ever, but it was awesome to hear This Modern Love in person and to dance to it with about a zillion 17 year old hipsters.

I went to a party with Emin this week where I got to talk about monogamy with some long-time gay couples. You are all probably wondering why I keep talking about monogamy, nonmongamy, polyamory, and the like.... and it has just really been on my mind lately. I didn't realize that there was a way that I could be who I was, sexually, and not end up cheating. I didn't realize that because you are in an 'open' relationship, you don't have to go out and have random sex....I know it sounds silly but, it didn't occur to me... David and I tried being in an open relationship for about, like 2 months, I guess, and I remember feeling like, 'well I better get to it, now that I am allowed to!' Really, 2 weeks ago, I realized that that was about the wrongest way I could look at things. I have never been successfully monogamous. Never. I mean completly. All that kissing people in college.... lots of people think that was cheating. I think it was kissing, since no emotion was envolved.... it was just kissing.... .... and why can't I want to be with 2 people at the same time! Why do I always have to choose?! It just seems so silly.....

anyway... I could ramble about that shit for days (poor Casey and Brenda must be SOOOO sick of me talking of nothing but nonmonogamy!) ....

There was some sad news in the world of Jess' Dating.... but I was honest with someone about something and I am proud of myself for this.

I got up at 3am on monday morning to be at Navy Pier at 5am, to go to Wisconsin, do a show for Chicago Shakes, and to return home (FINALLY) at 9pm. I was tired, to say the least. I am also really allergic to Wisconsin.... I spent all day yesterday feeling awful...and I don't feel much better now. Why is it that all I want when I am sick is just someone else to make me feel better? I am sure that this is what most people want.... it's just a funny time to want someone around... but I guess at times like those, we want to feel like people love us and want to take care of us despite the fact that we may be covered in snot and gross....I just wanted someone to make me tea and pet my head.... I am feeling better today, which is good... and I brought a box of tea and a bag of cough drops to work, so I'm set:)

I'm feeling all snuggley today.... and LOST is on tonight.... although I think I just ran out of the green stuff.... should still be good:)

The Host: *** (out of 5)
The Host is a crazy korean monster movie. Right now, you should know if this is for you. I just said, "crazy-Korean-Monster movie". Either you are in for it, or you aren't. Good monster.... good death... good explosions... good suspense... AMAZING score.

I also saw this again...

Hustle and Flow: *****
If you haven't seen this and you need a recommendation.... here it is. This is brillant and hip-hop and honest and about Man, Dreams, Truth, and Fucking-Doin'-It!

March 16, 2007

Neil Gaiman on the pronuciation of his name...

Q: How do you pronounce your last name? Is it gay-man or guy-man or something else?

Neil: It's Gaym'n.

I win.


March 15, 2007

well kiddies...

Things are going awesome:
We will have some company starting Friday...
Hung out all day yesterday with Drew and Emin....
Tuesday night Drew and I got drunk on the phone (which was awesome and I advise trying this atleast once)...
Casey and I are almost finished with the 5th season of The Sopranos...
Going on tour Monday and Tuesday with CST...

I could use some new Rock-ish music... if any of you are holding out on me, now is the time to give it up. I'm hurtin' here...

Oh! This is really important:
I am going to try using a 5 star (*****) rating system. There will be no half stars given, only whole ones. As I said, this is just a trial... (CURSE YOU IAN!)

almost forgot.... Happy Ides of March, kids! Especially Josh, whose Birthday is today!

March 13, 2007


I am about to get off work.. I am going to put on some FUCKING ROCK and dance my way home! It's beautiful outside... and I feel awesome!

March 12, 2007


I wrote about my weekend on MySpace. It was awesome.
Road Trip, Smokes, breakfasts, guitars, lots of friends, tequilla, and....other things made is awesome=)

300: ***
I liked this movie in the same way I liked Sin City. It's a different movie, and a different story but, Frank Miller is a genius and I will see his shit come to life. That's all there is to it. This isn't really a review, I know but, everyone and their brother is going to see this film, and some people aren't going to like it. This is one time, that no matter what kind of recommendation I give, or the reasons for it, pretty much everyone is gonna do their own thing.

Tenacious D: The Pick of Destiny: **1/2
If you already like The D, then this movie is awesome. If you like to smoke bud, then this movie is awesome. If you only like one of these things, this movie might make you laugh (depending on which one you like....) and if you like neither, then I would avoid it. I love Jack Black, The D, and dope...so this shit was awesome for me.

Things are good.

Because of Drew and his 'making me think' all the time, I gotta ask: Does anyone have any thoughts or feelings on polyamory, I want to hear them....

March 9, 2007

A story and something about blow jobs....

The story first:

So I am temping at a place that I have been many many times before. I think I have worked at this place (Skyline) for about 3 months total. Anyway, there is this short black guy in the mail room and he is always smiling at me. About 2 weeks ago he introduced himself and when I told him it was my last day for a while, he got this really sad look on his face. It was cute. Anyway, now it's 2 weeks later and I am back at Skyline. He comes up to my floor to deliver some mail, asks me how old I am, if I am single, and for my number....and I gave it to him. Not because I thought he was especially cute, or funny, or interesting but, because he had the balls to ask me... which is not something I think I have ever done to anyone. So, he calls. We're just shooting the shit for a minute and then he asks me if I have any kids. "no", I say, "should I have kids?" "I have two," he says, "well, I have one I know of and I know this girl who is pregnant and it might be my baby." Red Flag, right. Right. Then he asks me if I live with my mother. I say, "no, I live with a girl-friend, well not MY girl-friend, we don't do it or anything." He decides to follow this statement of mine with this, "are you sexually active". No joke. This throws me for a fucking loop. I didn't expect it at all... I was just trying to explain that I don't fuck my roommate. Anyway, I say "well, I mean, I have had sex... I am not running around looking to get laid." He says, "how about I come over there and we hook up?" This is when I hung up the phone....

Now, I know I told that story, and I was all appalled about the frankness of his sexually driven questions... so seguing into a blow job realization may not be the best thing to do at this point but.... well, too late...

I have found in my dating of men that men who grew up raised/surrounded by women (i.e. men taken care of by sisters, mothers, grandmothers) are more hesitant about receiving oral sex. Now, I in no way think taht anyone should be forced to do anything they don't want to, or to receive anything they don't want to but, come on... If you want to go down on your girl, you have to be able to understand that there will be times that she will want to go down on you too. 3 cheers for oral sex reciprocation!

March 7, 2007

Keeping Mum: ***1/2
This movie is awesome! Maggie Smith and Mr. Bean. Krisitin Scott Thomas and Patrick Swayze! Do I even need to say anything else! Everyone is truly hilarious in this double entendre filled brittish comedy about Maggie Smith and her murdering rampage. Well not the real Maggie Smith, I mean she is really in the movie... it's her character that is rampageous... oh you get the idea.... Patrick Swayze is a complete bag of douche in this film.

I just realized that I have like 4 more films to do and no heart to do them... so here are the stars:

Black Snake Moan: **** (SEE THIS NOW!)
Half Nelson: I gave it some stars below.... it was great.

The update

... So here is my life as of right now:

I am temping again but, atleast it gives me the chance to work on my resume, which I will do today. I think as soon as I get it all shaped up I am going to hit backstagejobs.com. Hard. I think I will apply for fucking every job they have in or train-ride-away-ible from Chicago. I can't take it anymore.

In other news: I went out on a date with that Drew boy I was telling you all about, and we had a great time but, we aren't going to see each other romantically. It's cool because it was totally mutual. Still an awesome guy to hang out with, which we did on Monday...

I am getting a crew together to see 300. It's like $20 in the Imax..... We gotta do it!

Also been hanging out with this kid Emin, and he is awesome. Awesome. I went over there the other day and some of his other friends came over. Apparently, I made it into the club...... we shall see...

Other than that.... It snowed again and, man, oh man, are people angry about it. Everyone I know says atleast once a day, "Oh, I can't wait for Spring". It is yucky and slushy outside, so I feel the same way but, we gotta find some better hallway-chit-chat. What with everyone in love with Obama, Lovie getting a new contract, Daley winning, and the possible Olympics.... you would think we would have more Chicago-based-info conversations....but everyone just wants it to warm up....


Jesus Camp: ***1/2
I have a hard time staring documentaries. I love learning about anything, and so I will watch pretty much any documentary out there. Let's say this, too, I am now absolutely positive that I am an athiest. Don't get derailed, kids, my statement of belief is in no way a cause of watching this movie. I realized whilst it was playing that at other points in my life, ANY talk of Jesus would have made me feel like I 'needed to get right with God'. Seriously...Any stray thought of Jesus would have made me go into my room and think about the kind of Christian I had been and the kind I wanted to be... but not this time. I felt no tiny tugs on my heart-strings. I heard no voice of God in my ear. I know this isn't a very reviewy thing to say but, I said all that to say this: Because I have no belief in the christian God that this movie follows, I feel I was able to watch it very openly. It was appaling what these people are indoctrinating into their children but, it's the will of the parents, and there is nothing we can do about it. No doubt, these kids really believe in what they are doing.... some of them anyway... The most interesting part of the doc. was the idea of the Christian Right vs. the Right kind of Christian. There was a radio show intersperced within the film of a Christian man slamming the mindless republican droids that Christianity has made. This man was a christian and NOT defending Bush. I know there are those of you out there... but, I know you. I have never heard any sort of media on the President's lack of Christ-like actions, decisions, and goals. That was awesome! And it goes without saying that this is only one sect of christianity, and we all know that not all christians are as crazy-fundanmental as this...

coming soon:
Half Nelson, Keeping Mum, Zodiac, Black Snake Moan....

March 1, 2007

Oh Karma....

Please don't send me back to an office. I don't want to go....

February 28, 2007

again with the tiny update

Last night I hung out with a guy named Emin. Good times:) 3ft glass piece, anyone? Oh, yeah:)

I am thinking that I have completely lost my fucking mind. It's awesome:)

February 26, 2007

Tiniest update...

I only have a minute here, so let's make this a quick update:

I met this guy named Drew and we hung out this weekend. There was Sushi, wine, green, and metal! So, that is pretty much heaven for me... no complaints:)

I have been learning wardrobe cover for Chicago Shakespeare Theatre's Short Shakespeare, Taming of the Shrew. Holy fuck. I am on a running crew for a play at fucking Chicago Shakes. Holy Fuck. I am here today thru thursday, covering for a girl name Kara and then I will go on tour with them for a couple of weeks in April. Not a big tour, a mostly local tour. Still. Chicago Shakespeare! OMG!

Oscar's... wohooo....

See these Movies or not:

Half Nelson:****
Smoking Aces:**

Can't wait to get into 5th season Sopranos! Thank you Ian!

February 15, 2007


After tomorrow the posts from me will be much more sporadic due to the not-having a computer at home issue...

Let's do reviews:)

Hannibal Rising: ***
I debated this score quite a bit. I wasn't really sure how this movie was going to catch me, after having suffered the torment of Red Dragon I wasn't sure that this was even worth it. It seems that sequels and prequels... well once they make a bad one, all the rest seem to follow suit but, luckily for me, this one did not. The pacing was very well done. The lighting, especially on the boat, was interesting but not distracting and the metamorphosis of Hannibal from a boy into a monster was tackled well. I didn't feel like they were shoving this movie down my throat and I didn't feel like they were making any excuses for Hannibal's behavior. If my childhood were to suddenly unravel in front of my eyes while some soldiers decided whether or not to eat me or my sister...well let's just say, that shit is fucked up. I would recommed this to anyone who like Silence of the Lambs. The gore is not melodramatic or overused. I was surprised when they didn't show the death of the young sister but, happy because it was a more striking way to deal with her death. Sometimes not showing everything is better, right? I think so.

Bloc Party - Weekend in the City: ***1/2
Overall this is a good album. It didn't have the instantaneous *BlAM* that I thought the first album had. The Prayer is a great track, starting off with some chanting and ending with some balls to the wall rockin' like the Bloc Party we know and love. I sadly did not get a cd with bonus tracks included but, if you can find one, I would check out song 12. I hear it's great... and I have reliable sources...

Lily Allen - Alright, Still: ****
This brit-pop girl is awesome! If you like pop at all, you should give it a listen. My favorite track is Everything's Just Wonderful. Make sure you get the explicit!

Wa-Deh-Ta, My Brothers, Wa-Deh-Ta.

Guess who's going to see Bloc Party in March, baby. Oh yeah... it's me (all hail Ian for telling me!)

February 14, 2007

Hell yes!

Somebody buy me this!

Video Game Nerds are Me!

I was totally set to have a day where all I thought about was trying not to think about Valentine's day BUT, fuck it, I have something way cooler to think about. I am a geek. It's true... and I listen to some video game podcasts! I listen to almost everything 1up.com puts out in the way of radio and a couple of days ago I posed a question to GFW and they answered it on their podcast, dated 2/13/2007! HOLY CRAP! I don't know if anyone else can understand that I don't care how nerdy this shit sounds, it is so awesome! I have been bouncing and smiling all morning and I expect I will be all evening... what with Lost to look forward to as well. So, Happy Stupid-FuckedUp-Bullshit Hallmark Holliday everyone!

I just need a second to scream..... 'cause I am totally stoked about this!

February 9, 2007


Barack Obama's campaign headquarters are 2 feet from Casey's Office building! WOHHHOOOOOO!


I have never been a 'dater'. I have never 'dated' people. I hang out with someone for some time, eventually we are together. I don't know how to go on a date (not that there is anyone asking). Well, I just realized that since no one is asking me, I don't really have to worry about it.

Today I entered a company into my work database called Nadler. Hahahehe. Nads are funny.

February 8, 2007



I love Lost.

I got bored and did this again

February 5, 2007

nothing comes to mind....

The Queen: ***1/2
This movie was an excellent portrayl of what The Queen of England went through immediatly following the death of Princess Dianna. It is remarkably fair-minded; showing no bias towards either the people's point of view nor the Queen's. I am not sure there is more for me to say on the subject...Helen Mirren was amazing. Wonderful to watch.

I know that isn't much of a review but I am not sure that I am really in the mood right now. Bears lost. It was a cool day, though. Erin, Brenda, Casey and I watched the game together. It was my first Super Bowl with no men. I totally dug it.

But we still lost and I guess I am just feelin' a little blue.


That line is supposed to signify a new train of thought...

I am lonely, here in Chicago.

February 2, 2007

Suspicious packages turn up in Chicago, Kansas City | Chicago Tribune

Suspicious packages turn up in Chicago, Kansas City | Chicago Tribune

This is my building. They gave us the option of leaving early while they were examining the package. I did.

What about The Cartoon Network, huh? huh? That's some funny shit, right? It is funny that I walk around laughing at the world for getting so upset about this Marketing/Mooninites-people-thought-they-were-bombs... only to be evacuated from my building because an acctual explosive device has been found. An Unusual Day.

January 30, 2007

At a loss

I am going to talk about Little Children and I am going to talk about the movie as frankly as I can which will involve mostly nothing but spoilers. Please do not keep reading if you want the movie to remain a surprise:

Little Children: ????

I have no idea how many stars to give this movie. It is the first time I have not been able to star something. I cannot figure out how I feel. Maybe it's 2 stars, maybe 3, maybe none? I think...but I am not quite sure. I know there are critics (and civilians as well) out there who are much smarter than I am. They have been doing this longer. They have seen and remember more. But I don't care about them.

This is a movie about: affairs, children, pedafilia, marriage, loss, football, and recovery. Kate Winslet is a one-time-ago anthropologist who is not really working after the birth of her first child. She does not fit in with the 'suburban' mothers in her local park and meets Patrick Wilson who plays Brad. They end up hanging out all the time. Their kids become friends. They have hot sex almost every weekday.
Then there is a pedafile, recently let out of jail, named Ronnie who has moved back in with his mother. He is still ALMOST mentally a child himself. I think. I think this is what I am supposed to understand. He has a disease (this is the movie's and Ronnie's definition of what is wrong with him) and he can not control his actions. His mother sets him up on a blind date and he makes her drive to a playground so he can masturbate to the empty swings?! There is also an ex-cop who is tormenting Ronnie and his mother by spray painting his sidewalk, posting fliers on doors with Ronnie's picture, and driving by and honking his horn.
I am exhausted explaining already. Here is the breakdown: I think there are metaphors in this movie. I think they are there. But what do they mean? The seemingly amazing affair between Kate and Patrick ends in a semi-climactic incident suggesting that all Patrick's character wanted was to live a little dangerously, to try something new. To have the things which his wife (Jennifer Connely) denies him. Kate's character goes home because she is scared, and this tells us basically that she is afraid of everything and her reason for the affair was in essecence teaching herself to be unafraid. The pedafile, well, he cuts his dick off in a playground and ahhh, therefore he has made amends by removing his weapon in his battlefield of choice. He does this in order that he may 'Be a good boy'; his mother's last request of him before her death of heart failure or the like. The excop takes him to the hospital, allowing him to make up for all of the hurt and evil he has done.
So what? I am not sure. I am not sure why all of this should be compelling to me. I am not sure what it is that I am to understand except that people may not even understand their own motivations. Can this whole movie be telling us that we as humans, do not know what we want. We cannot be fully aware of what drives us, and only by following these (in all ways illicit) pathways and seeing what is out there, only then can we know why we wanted these things in the begining? Maybe this is what it wants me to know.

Maybe. Maybe?

January 25, 2007

I want to

These are things I want to do but polite society, taboo, and general unrest may occur because of them. I will therefore not do them. But I still want to...

Sing if I want to when I am listening to Music on the ipod. Anywhere I am.
Scream in el tunnels
scream in general, where ever I am, if I get frustrated enough
Punch things (desks, walls, punching bags)
Break Glass (probably not by hitting it with my body: much more along the lines of throwing bottles or dropping dishes)

Play air guitar in public when I have metal on the ipod
Dance around the room when I am bored
hug people I don't know if they look like they could use it
smoke cigarettes just to piss people off
PLan an elaborate prank on someone.
Give other people one of my ear buds if the music playing on my ipod is so good I want to share, or if I think the person looks like they would also enjoy what I am listening to...

I am sure there are more... but I am not sure what they are...

January 23, 2007

79th Oscars (with Addendum)

And the Nominees are...

I really hope that Best Animated Feature does NOT go to Cars. Monster House and Happy Feet were far superior in story and completly on the level as far a graphics, style, and voice acting. Cars does not have the compeling story that any other Pixar movie has. There was no surprise or suspense and only the tinniest flutter of joy when everything happened exactly the way I new it would in the first 10 minutes. I really hope Ratatouille is better (BRAD BIRD IS THE MAN!)

I would like to see Mark Wahlberg pick up Best Supporting Actor. He was great and so was The Departed.

Achievment in Art Direction is Pan's Labyrinth. If it doesn't win, I wouldn't be too mad about The Prestige picking it up.

Achievment in Cinematography has to go to Children of Men. That shit blew me away... (see post below)

Music should go to Pan's Labyrinth, too. Great. But I LOVE Thomas Newman. LOVe LOVE LOVE him.

I guess Visual Effects to Pirates? Even though both Superman Returns and Poseidon were shit movies I guess the visual effects were alright.

Everything else... well I am just going to have to think for a while. I have been writing this post whilst reading the list for the first time... so I am trying to process and think as I go, and I am going to need to keep thinking before I say anything else.

p.s. I love picking Oscar awards and if you like it too, then send me an email with your picks:)

If I have to open one more generic webpage (read: MSN, Yahoo) and the first thing to pop up is "Did Dreamgirls get snubbed?" I am going to vomit all over the place and then I am going to pick that shit up and mail it to the aformentioned websites. Fuck Dreamgirls. Whatever. Maybe you liked it... maybe you like musicals... whatever... It wasn't Best Picture. It should NOT have been nominated for that category. Fuck anyone who thinks differently... cause you are wrong on this one. That shit got 8 nominations! Thank GOD it didn't get nominated for Best Picture because if that movie won the year after Crash.. I would have ABSOLUTELY no faith in the Academy.

January 22, 2007


Lamb of God is playing in Nashville! Fucking IAN HUGHES called me at work to tell me. I haven't been able to do anything since then. I just keep staring at the ticketmaster shit and ... I just can't do anything... I mean I can't think... well I can think but only if it involves Lamb of God and .... see... just lost train of thought.... I think I am going to pace the reception area for a while... 'cause I really just want to SCREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!


Well I watched all of the Bears/Saints game on Sunday and it was AWESOME! I can't believe I move to chicago and the Bears are going to the SuperBowl! WOHOOO! I watched the Colts/Patriots game from the Colts catch up; in other words, when the score went to 21-21. Casey watched too! GOOOOOOO BEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I saw Letters from Iwo Jima this weekend and I just love how wonderfully slow and diliberate Eastwood is as a director. I forgot I was watching a movie about WWII and when the first bombs fell I was so shocked. It was gorgeously filmed, as I find most of his movies to be. I think it gets ***1/2.

last week was The Good German and I don't know if I talked about it... It was alright. It seemed to be a film that had many interesting elements but, in the end, not really a compeling story. It was neat that they shot it with the old cameras and the shadow-play was beautiful. Cate is always lovely to watch, as is Clooney but there was just some pizzaz or spark that was ultimately missing. If I rated it some other way before... this is what I think now: **1/2

Children of Men, which Jesse pointed out I hadn't talked about, was A-Fucking-Mazing! **** (4 stars) all the way! Beware of Spoilers:

How fucking unbelievable when the camera went total docu-drama style and there was blood on the lens and it was panning with Clive Owen and shit was blowing up and ....! GOD! I mean I really felt my heart racing. What a joy to be so overwhelmed! Great. This movie is great. Stellar performances from everyone but I would especially like to Big Up Julianne Moore who had been making some terrible movies of late. This is a step in the right direction for her, even though she was once again playing a women who lost a child?!? What happend to the days of Fucking stoners to have a child and flinging oneself at canvas? Clive Owen is one of my favorite working actors, and he was, as usual, unbelievably tangible. He was a way of breathing into characters so that I totally believe him.

Next week: Well we will see what the Oscars dig up but, with the nomms coming tomorrow, there are bound to be some re-releases. I would Like to see Little Children and The Queen and Casey really wants to see The Last King of Scottland, so that is a possiblity as well...

I recieved word that some people finally got to see Pan's Labyrinth! I will Champion that film til I die. If you get a chance.. go.
It's playing at the Bijou downtown Chattanooga and at Opry Mills and the Bellcourt in Nashville. Lots of places in Chicago (but most of you aren't here:( ) SEE IT!

January 19, 2007

just so you know....

I really like pinball.


ELECTRIC VAGINA? Nope.... Vaginismus (John Irving knows what I'm talkin' about)


I didn't have a counter on this page for a long time, mostly because I was lazy and picky. I found one that is alright and I put it at the bottom of the page so most of you probably don't know it's there....and I forget... but I just looked and I hit over 1,000. awesome! I am so cool. hahaha. not really. but it is neat.

January 18, 2007

blah blah

Well My High School Class Ring is totally gone forever. It would cost me like $300 bucks to get it replaced. I really loved that ring and, wore it everyday since I got it in 1999...which means I am really bummed that I lost it. Really bummed.

Also, how can I still not own The Little Mermaid collectors edition DVD? it's my favorite Disney movie.

The Wire is coming to BET, so if you don't have HBO or Netflix then you should fucking watch that shit. It one of the greatest shows ever created. It is unfuckingbelievable.

la la la la la

I love me a podcast. Do you guys listen to podcasts? Which ones? I really like 1up Yours which is about video games! Awesome!

ramble ramble.......

This is a great place to hang out

This is not so great

January 17, 2007

I had a bad day

an Lj type rant:

why on earth is it so fucking impossible to just be ok with the way things are? Is there ever going to be a time where I can relax and enjoy things? 25 started off so good, and then I got to thinking. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know what I want, or who I want or where I want it. I mean I do know some of the things I want but I can't make those things happen. why am I working in this stupid Temp agency. What am I doing in an office?


Do you ever just know it is going to be a bad day. Well I knew this morning, and I was fucking right.

January 16, 2007


My Birthday was amazing and that is all thanks to Casey Clark, who is the DOG'S BALLS!

Also this email from Barack Obama:

And that's why I wanted to tell you first that I'll be filing papers today to create a presidential exploratory committee. For the next several weeks, I am going to talk with people from around the country, listening and learning more about the challenges we face as a nation, the opportunities that lie before us, and the role that a presidential campaign might play in bringing our country together. And on February 10th, at the end of these decisions and in my home state of Illinois, I'll share my plans with my friends, neighbors and fellow Americans.


January 12, 2007

Happy Almost Birthday to Me!

I turn 25 tomorrow. I would like hugs and kisses for my birthday (not the candy.. the real thing).

January 11, 2007

Happy Dance!

I have been waiting for something for a while now and today I will get it ! Use deductive reasoning...

here is a clue... I will use something I got for Christmas.

"Jess is" bored at work

I played that game where you type "Your Name is" into google and see what happens... here are some funny one:

Jess is a trend-setter for American Girls in several ways
Jess is trying to move in a new direction
Jess Is Dead Good
Jess is the rule engine for real programmers
Jess Is Torn Between Two Blokes
Jess is a competitive cyclist
Jess is licensed commercially and is being used in enterprise

Jess is available to serve as a guest on television and radio programs
Jess is not free for government use
Jess is a single piece of leather

And my Favorite

Jess is More

Other Future Tattoo

Here is the moon for my left shoulder ( It will be slightly more tilted than it appears here...

and Orion is going on the right...

January 10, 2007


Hey here is roughly my future Orion Tattoo... Is there anything you would change?

January 9, 2007

Screaming Loudly

It's My 25th Birthday on Saturday

Buy me something!

But I am screaming because I havenever wanted to beat the shit out of anything like I want to beat the copier at work. Holy Fucking Christ! I really think I could rip out all innards and tear off all the doors and kick the living hell out of it.

wooooo.... I am feeling a little tense cats and kittens...
Maybe you could send me This for my birthday instead...

January 3, 2007

My Top 11 Movies

If you have already read this... well I am changin' it because I forgot something...
so now this list... 'it goes up to 11'

Top 11 Movies Released to the General Public in 2006

1. Pan's Labyrinth
2. V for Vendetta
3. United 93
4. The Departed
5. Little Miss Sunshine
6. The Fountain
7. A Prairie Home Companion
8. Casino Royal
9. The Descent
10. The Prestige
11. Thank you for Smoking

Some others I liked:

Grandma's Boy, Clerks II, Slither, Happy Feet, Stranger Than Fiction, Friends with Money, Borat, Running Scared, The Matador, Jackass: Number 2, Monster House, Something New, Hostel, Accepted, Snakes on a Plane, Silent Hill, Lady in the Water, The Hills Have Eyes, A Scanner Darkly, Eight Below, Glory Road.

What I haven't yet seen:

The Queen, Little Children, Children of Men, Babel, The Last King of Scotland, Volver, Notes on a Scandal, Letters From Iwo Jima, Keeping Mum, The Good Shepherd, The Good German, Marie Antoinette.

Top 8 of All Time (Favorite)

1. Pan's Labyrinth
2. Gosford park
3. Spiderman 2
4. Royal Tennenbaums
5. Iron Giant
6. V For Vendetta
7. Love Actualy
8. Signs

Pan's Labyrinth

THis was the Best Movie I Saw of 2006. Since Everyone is doing Best of's and stuff. I just saw it last weekend and I am still too blown away to be able to talk about it. It was Fucking Perfect. They BEST Fairy Tale I have EVER heard/seen in my life. Holy God. I am so Floored. If you have to drive up here to Chicago to see it, I think it would be well worth the gas money. I am trying to Figure out a Tattoo I can have of this movie (which is a HUGE deal because I am already about 3 tat's behind).

so if you can draw and you want to draw me something from this film do it. also Orion